Getting Close!

Just two short days from today I will be going for my baseline testing.  Hopefully we will get the thumbs up to start stims that evening and I'm really hoping that I stay on track with the calendar my nurse laid out.  My ER is estimated to be on Friday 5/18 and I have an important meeting on the 17th.  I will have a talk with my boss this week to see what our backup plan is for if I get moved up a day.  I'm sure it will be fine.  He knows that I'm doing this, but he doesn't know the dates.  I will lay everything out for him and tell him how it's expected to go.  I'm lucky to be able to be flexible with my hours when needed.  It's never a problem to take time off....well as long as there's a good reason, which this is.

In other news, we've been waiting on the edge of our seats for the results of hubby's semen analysis.  He went in on 4/25 and they told us that the results would be back in a week and then my doctor has to review them.  My nurse said to call on the 3rd for the results.  I did this and was told that he hadn't reviewed them and won't be back in the office until Monday.  We were so upset that we had to wait another 4 days.  Hubby said to me that he will be really upset if he's the problem.  I told him that he's most likely normal since he got me pregnant 3 times.  Then I said that we already know that I'm the one with the issue and all of this is my fault.  He assured me that he doesn't think of it that way in the least.  I love that he tries to make me feel better, but it's just a fact that I'm the defective one.  So anyway, I get a call this morning and when I answered the phone it was my Dr.  My heart jumped in my throat and I was prepared for bad news.  Afterall, it had to be bad for him to call me on a Saturday.  He said his results were totally NORMAL!  Hubby was so so happy.  He started asking what the numbers were and if it was high.  I laughed and said I didn't ask, but it didn't matter.  I will be asking my nurse for the specifics on Monday though.

I've filled my Mom and MIL in on the fact that we're starting IVF.  They don't have specific dates, but they are aware.  I figured it would be best to let them know.  I may need their support and I know that they're willing to help in any way they can. 

Mother's Day is next weekend and I'm pretty bummed that I should either have a baby in my arms, be about to pop or be growing a baby in my belly.  I don't plan to bring up the fact that I beleive I am a mother, but I will celebrate my own motherhood.  Afterall, I was the best mom I could be to my angels.  The moment I knew of them, I cared for them the best that I could.  I would have done anything to save them and miss them terribly.