So much has happened

I realize it's been a little while since I've written.  So much has happened and the time has flown by.  I started stims on 5/7.  My baseline that morning showed no cysts, but they said my lining was a little thick so I thought I would get pushed out a day.  I was shocked when I got the call to start.  I was on 150 Gonal-F and 1 vial of Menopur.  The first night went really smooth and it didn't hurt.  The second night I got a little messed up when hubby was observing and apparently the needle wasn't screwed on all the way and I lost a bit of meds.  After that I had it down to a science.

My first monitoring was on 5/11 and they said my lining looked good and I had 4 follies around 8mm and 5 less than 8.  Sunday, 5/13 was my next appointment.  At that time I had 5 that were over 8mm.  I was told to start Ganirelix that evening and return on Tuesday.  The next appointment had 8 over 8mm and  a few smaller ones.  I was a bit dissappointed as I was hoping for a lot of follies.  I returned the next day and they grew with the largest being 22 and the smallest measured being 10.5, still a total of 8.  I was told I probably wouldn't trigger that night, which bummed me out somemore as I was hoping to trigger Wednesday evening for a Friday retrieval.  But I had to do what was best for my eggs.  Thursday was the final follie check.  My lining looked fantastic and I had 12 follies with 4 most likely not mature enough and 8 decent sized ones.  Hubby gave me the HCG trigger shot on Thursday night at 10:45pm.  He was so nervous and shaking, but I talked him through it and he did great!

Friday morning we arrived at the clinic at 8:15 with specimen in tow.  I was fairly nervous.  I knew we didn't have a huge amount of follies so I was scared of not having many eggs.  I knew that not all would be mature and not all would fertilize.  Hubby did his best to calm my nerves, telling me that it was going to be great.  I have to say, he's been my rock through this past year.

I was taken into pre-op aroung 8:30, changed into a gown.  They wrapped me in a heated blanket which was so nice.  Took my vitals where my pulse was 115...I guess I was nervous.  I was brought into the operating room at around 9:15 and quickly sedated.  Before I knew it I was in recovery.  Hubby came in and I was a little groggy, but felt good.  They told me they got 8 eggs.  I was pleased with this as I was expecting about 7.  A little while later, I was released and off to the couch I went.  Post procedure I had some cramping and it was uncomfortable to go to the bathroom, but overall I felt good.

This morning we were so anxious to get our fertilization report.  It was the longest morning ever.  The phone rang a little after 10 am.  Nurse Jackie was on the other end and told me that of the 8...6 were mature and 5 fertilized.  I was happy with this, but as time is passing I'm getting scared.  I'm scared that they will start dropping like flies after today.  I was hoping for a 5DT and will know tomorrow for sure which we will be doing.  Please keep growing little embies....PLEASE.

This whole process has been crazy and stressful and a long rollercoaster of emotions.  I'm just hoping and praying for a happy ending.